I’m going deeper into digging and fully realizing/solidifying the flavor of techno music that I enjoy and want to mix with. I’ve learned to be pickier, find tracks with the right kind of … sparseness is the best way I can put it right now. My job at GP81 has unexpectedly done a lot for my confidence in selecting and playing music for others. Music sets ambient conditions and I believe we can radicalize a space with sound in some minute way. Coming back around to the idea that DJing is actually really cool and valid if engaged with properly. I’ve always been obsessed with the discovery of music but have without fail felt great anxiety about playing what I enjoy around other people, alienated from the rest by what I enjoy the most. Still, I felt no force keeping me from being uncompromising in my taste. What has become different in this anxiety for techno is that as a dance genre the tracks have been designed for what I think of as the universal, not the particular, made for the many to sweat it out. So despite what I view as an uncompromising taste normally, with techno, the particular’s aim is always for that universal purpose. It should always be danceable, even if it’s freaky. This realization gives me the space to develop a singular vision for the genre. I express all of this as a humble appreciation the things that I love about music, discovery about myself and how to connect with others. I don’t necessarily dream of becoming known for my practices but the path to happiness for me is through the cultivation of creative proclivities, to assert, bring forth, becoming. That’s the only way I can find contentment if not meaning.